I'm sorry!

Never doing this again...

Nov, Dec, Jan, Feb, Mar, and finally April. Oops!!! Five months.

This is straight from a page of my journal.

Yes, I've started journaling occasionally and its been helping me define my plan of action everyday. Highly recommended!!

Yeah so coming to the point, I'm back.

Needed the last 5 months of constant focus on one thing to build something substantial to a level that it doesn't fail unless I deliberately want it to fail.

But I do wonder — did I really need that break from writing myself here and on twitter or was this narrative people set for us that drove me towards that.

Basically, what most people believe is that you can't build something while you create content.

And I thought I'm definitely not a normal full time content creator. Then I should shut off everything and concentrate on building.

I allowed popular narrative to drift me away from something I loved to do — writing.

Truth be told, I still wrote occasionally for FinFloww.

And me being involved directly into content really helped us a lot.

But that's pure work. Here it's different.

Here it's just a person who wants to talk and rant and research deep concepts and make them consumable.

Here it is differently special.

Apne liye likhto ho kya? Haan likhta hoon. Ab phirse likhoonga.

Meanwhile, you guys were so awesome!!

From 500 something this newsletter scaled to 2100 without me even posting anything.

That's power of distribution. But what I personally care about it love and loyalty. I know I can win numbers with creating content that can be distributed well, but I want love.

A friend told me unless you monetise it well, your distribution means nothing.

It's like saying to a cricketer — unless you're able to make it to commericals, your batting skills mean nothing.

A writer is an artist. His/her inspiration isn't about money. Yup, they need food on the table and stuff. But primarily, their motivation is love.

Like I said, in the past few months I let foreign narratives (foreign as in to my mind not foreign countries) guide my path forward for my content creation, but a few days ago got my senses back.

I definitely don't want to become just a content creator. I'm building a business and I'll keep building more startups. Because I love doing that.

But I never want to stop creating again too. Because this part of my work gives me a lot of happiness and it's my curiosity inducing mechanism.

I was distant from it in the past 5 months.

A lot of times narratives keep us from being the different version from the crowd. Yup most people who talk too much don't build. Most content creators are like that.

But it doesn't mean I can't be a mix of both. This time off made me realise the importance of being true to myself and doing things that work for me.

I don't regret focusing either. It was a phase and it was meant to be.

The lessons it taught me and the level up it gave me is immense. And I'm finally able to say I've figured out the basics.

So, yeah…sorry for not being there. Thanks for being in touch.

Glad I'm back with a lot more research and nuanced perspectives that changed the way I perceive things. And maybe help you see the other side too.

See you next Sunday and throughout this week on twitter and insta. Yup threads coming back!!!