Freedom is slow poison!

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Truth be told, I didn't plan this issue today.

I do want to maintain consistency, and that's why this edition is more of a mind dump.

I understood one behaviour in myself recently:

Since the time I left school, I left the last inch of subjugation there.

I was rebellious in my teens (atleast in my mind) but I couldn't do anything about it.

The whole school structure was bigger and stronger than me.

As I got control over myself something interestingly changed. I felt unchained, yet not in control.

See power over yourself isn't the best thing to have when you're immature.

Discipline is the most important thing back then.

Also side note: I was always more disciplined than most in almost everything.

The urge to do something completely on top of my mind was always there. I never liked working with constraints.

But what I've understood now that these constraints are the ones that really build you.

Creativity in shackles is no creativity at all, but creative wandering without discipline brings you nothing in the end.

What happened was that I started doing stuff I wanted to do for the longest time, but even then i couldn't do them properly.

Why was that? Because I trained my mind to stop working under constraints, and later it could not be even controlled by it's own supremacy.

Freedom without discipline takes you nowhere.

It's only when I started setting up systems for myself again (this time there was no other authority over me), I started doing great work again. Things started shaping up for me.

And I'm nowhere close to where I want to be, but it's definitely a good start.

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What I learnt in the week?

When I started out posting things on twitter it was purely for fun. It included memes, some thoughts, some lessons from the startup I was building and my productivity journal.

Slowly I came to realise people actually want that. I started being more serious about it and posted consistently.

Consistently trying to give something better.

In the process I had this urge to become a creator. I had never thought of myself that way. It was good for the responsibility part, and made me consistent, but it was an undue pressure.

I do want to create, but not for validation. I do want to create but not just for the response. And I do appreciate if it gets a good response too. Who doesn't? When you're creating something, you try make it so good that people read and make it reach more people.

But that slowly put me off track. I started thinking of it as a job (constraints again) and what started as a curiosity project had become a responsibility.

And yesterday I finally stopped thinking of it that way.

I'm going to create for myself. For my curiosity. And tweak it for it to reach more people. I'm never taking this pressure of creation on myself. I'll be consistent because I love writing and I love demystifying things which make me curious.

And most importantly I love when people also get some value from it.

And that is why I'm going to do a lot more different kind of topics which people don't think usually work on social media. My goal isn't to make it go viral, my job is to make it so good that many people read it and they feel like sharing it.

That's what I learnt this week.

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What's coming this week?

Next week I have one of the most mind bending things I've ever written.

A topic that I was intrigued by so much, that I saved every video, article, bought every book on it.

And this thread will be a culmination of all that.

In 2002, a psychologist was awarded the Nobel Prize for economics.

If this thing intrigues you too, then you'd love the thread. Coming Monday (hopefully)

And a deep dive on it coming on Tuesday.